Afraid Of Myself
I smiled and said hi
I couldn't continue the conversation
For I felt my insecurities crawling up to my mind

I walked away and left her perplexed
I couldn't get help, my heart was way too congested
And before I knew it
The river in my eyes started flowing down the desert I call my cheeks
So then I knew I couldn't face the truth
I'll beat about the bush, failing to at least elude
I wasn't even persuasive enough
So I found a room and shut the door
I had a fear I couldn't face
A tear I couldnt erase
A memory I wouldn't embrace
And I sat there and stumbled across my perceptions
I didn't want to give her the wrong impression
So I unlocked the room and walked out
And just then I remembered that couldn't face my fears
And it really knocked me down
And until today I'm still this way
A poetic introverted mind is what I'd say