You never believed in happy endings A life lived clean Was never in the cards for you Your hands smear stains of blood and dirt Into clothing layered with so much of it You wonder if that’s all it is anymore You wonder at how your heart holds together With all of the pieces torn out of it But it’s mended with alcohol, sewing kit sutures And sheer force of will. You are so tired of blood You are so tired of being weighed down By the force of your past But it’s all you’ve ever known And sometimes you wonder what it’s like To look to the future And hope.