I get the feeling that certain things
aren’t meant for me
but in spite of this
I keep trying
and trying
even if I never get it right
You might think
why ever bother
putting all this effort into things
that aren’t meant to be
Been stuck into this vicious game
for longer than I can remember
defeated all the time, but never surrendered
Gambler’s fallacy, you may say
and I’ve paid for each one of my mistakes
Maybe it’s a matter of strategy
Or maybe I’ve just lost my sanity
Because looking for love to only find apathy
Again and again
Is such a nagging pain
But I know that every false step
Every heartache
is bringing me closer
to you, my lover
So far it’s been the one and only thing
that kept me going through it all
You gave me strength
Even if I haven’t met you yet
Up to this day, I have nothing to lose
Already went all in with a two of spades
But I’ve paid my dues
Now I know what to do
No more wasting time
On hellos turning into goodbyes
I know next time
when I’ll find you
when I’ll make you mine
Everything will be like I’ve always imagined
or maybe better
because you’re the only one
who’s gonna matter.