the happiness I feel only last for a couple of minutes
I can feel the joy sparking again
but then all of sudden it hits me again
the dark cloud over me not wanting to go away
I can’t stop but to think
if I’m ever going to be okay
I want to feel happiness not just for a little  I want it to be permanent
not temporary
the feel of sadness is the only thing that I feel for a long time
it’s hard to imagine me being okay
cuz all I have are negative thoughts
that won’t go away