smoking all this **** to awaken the thoughts
i have deep down
that only roar so angrily in my head
and makes me crave you more to be here with me
abandonment makes you feel alive doesnt it?
im going to stop calling out for you
im forcing these wants on you that you never intended to make feel whole
my humanely unnecessary needs get the best of me at times
and i keep forgetting that none of this matters
and that maybe right now you arent meant to be on my journey
i seek answers from the universe to guide me to you and the forces just neglect
neglect?
protect?
protect me from going down the same path because i still havent cracked the code
the code that love may be something i wont receive and i have to be okay with being alone
not alone?
i am a butterfly, and i move freely and so beautifully as an lone
though i have not met the key holder yet i pray that you are well and you get to me in the most imperfectly perfect condition
i am okay
i love me
i love you
farewell