It hurt. I wanted to hide my
face and crawl back into
this shell that hide the beautiful
parts of me. All those insecurities
took a hold of me and tried
to convince me love isn’t meant
for me.

Part me didn’t want to eat
after you told the only truth that
could truly hurt me. It was first
time I felt all eyes starting back
at me judging me like I thought
they use to be. All stand up and
look at this freak.

I doubted everything I ever
was would be good enough since
the truth is the only thing
people saw in me was skin deep
and should just shut up and
know my place on totem pole
the freak of the show.

Until I realized it would be your
lost in the end. I’d change for me
and never look at any of you the
same again because you looked
away instead of within.