see,
i know
i will hate myself
if i go back on my word
almost as much
as i hated myself
for saying them
but not quite
hence the part where i said it anyway.
i always know
when i stumble
accidentally
in love
that i will eventually
find my way out
of the maze
and often times
very quickly.
i'll wake myself up
brush myself off
wipe the love
from my eyes
like cheap mascara
tie my loose laces
and be on my way
with enough backward glances
to draw me back in
sometimes....
but tonight
honestly
darling,
you can suffer.
it's really hard for me
to do this to someone
it has been done to me
too many times
but i think it's
your turn
tonight

this

(is)                                     ­          was

your

last

(poem)                              ­          **chance