I am chasing this thing that always eludes me. In the day he openly embraces Man. See, they’ve known each other for centuries, shoulder to shoulder, unrelenting hand in unrelenting hand as they dance betwixt the world of fantasy and pain. A universe I know all too well. A courtesy we could never have.
Matta still in my eyes, limbs sore from just being born, naivete radiating from my skin. I trail, inquire, plead— he laughs in my face before evaporating observe.
I have a plan.
I could forfeit my mind, let ambition and sense seethe through my temples. Knees the color of my behind from crawling through the mud. Pungent fertilizer gathering underneath my nails as I plant hibiscus, mint and poinciana in a Man’s garden. My body falling apart and together at the calloused hands of my oppressor.
There must be another way.
I turned to the sky, they know us Women well.
Every thirty moons, I offer up a sacrifice. Take this crimson sea between my anchors that Mother ordained. Take it and give us strength.
He eludes me still.
I fight and I protest and I bawl and I break down and I stand up and I smile and I make love to anyone capable of loving. I am still searching. Tactile, hard and brown like an egg’s shell you can’t see this soft, permeable mass yet it lives, survives. *But the chase is over.