sometimes i get so alone in my loneliness-- an island in the dancing waves, a dirtclod in a diamond cave-- i search for solace in your sagging *******, some purpose in your imperfection. i use the ridges of your ribs' recesses as momentary misdirection, i indulge in the dimples of your lower back with all intents of intense distraction. but i'm sorry for my feelings fleeting & my love not lasting past the weekend, if i'm not tangled in your skin's dimensions i'm in the trenches dispensing demons (i ****** habits like they're heathens). & when it's time to wash my hands, i rinse them in your innocence & raid you like the villages i plunder in the daylight hours. i'm stunned at how your heart devours what i run from like a coward.