I'm thinking I'ma collect a 300 check cause I get ******* out of life so often and see if I can't just leave my state and go to Cali of  Seattle. And run away. I'm getting old and I need to focus on a music carrear before it's to late. This motivational thing is stupid. I can't be positive around negative emotion. If feels like a failure wherever I go. I'm not happy without money or change. It's painful to feel used and hurt . More people confess there problems to me but never want to hear my result of opinion.