Hey Aiden
Hows Life
I don't know, it's alright
I've been dealing with some things like every human being and
really didn't sleep much this time
I'm sorry
That's fine
I just think I need a little me-time
I just think I need a little free time
A little break from days of the rough times


This year I had a breakdown
Thoughts telling me I'm lost getting too loud
I had to see my uncle then I found out
Something weird is going on up in my house
So I started thinking maybe I should move out
Pack up my Cart take a new route
Clean up my yard get the noose out
Hang up my heart let it air out


I've been searching
What does that mean Aiden
I've been learning
Keeping my keepsake
Leaving my burdens
See I brought a few with me I'm not perfect
Picking up the cue right I'm quite nervous
Hate it when I lose sight my life gets blurry
And things might hurt me
It's gonna be a long journey


It's worth it tho
The cold world out there
Kids grab your coats
Been a minute I know but see I'm back to roam
Looking for the antidote to crack the code
Been a minute I admit it I'm in resting mode
Don't get pity given to me but I can't condone
Taking down to me I'ma have to rip out your throat
For cracking jokes
I'm looking for the map to hope you saw it


Been making a whole lot of changes
But those are in my journal you should read it
I'm scared when I'm out in new places
I look and see so many faces
That's when I start to get anxious
That's when my bloodlust make me dangerous
That's when I put my balloons up and drown in self-hatred
Forget what I'm saying and

(Smells blood)......

Wheres that scent coming from......

Oh look what's coming
Bloodlust came in you ain't see that coming
Hands on my head can't tell me nothing
Got a taste of that habit then I pump my stomach
Threw it back up like I don't want it
Wipe my face clean up my *****
Now my bloodlust trying to push my buttons
I said don't touch it
Now you've done it........

I can be critical never typical
I can be civil but never minimal
See I can be visual
Even if you hate it I make you feel like you're in it tho
Call me what you want but you never call me forgettable
Leave you deep in thought I can never swim in a kitty pool
Man I don't know If I'm making a journal or a story tho

Yeah you can rise
Doesn't mean much tho when your health declines
See we all got something that we trapped inside
We try to suffocate you know hoping it dies
Hold it underwater but it always survives
Comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise
Hovers over you to tell you millions of lies
You don't relate to that
You must not be crazy as I am

What I saying is that a mind is a powerful place
What you feed it can affect you in a powerful way
Pretty cool right but it's not always safe
Hang with me it will only take a moment okay
Think about for a second when you look at your face
When you get up everyday thinking that you will never be great
See, you'll never be great
We always find a way to cut you up and ****** your faith

See I  never am delicate
But am I relevant that depends how you measure it
Take a measurement then back it up and give me the evidence

It's my time again better grab your balloons invite your friends
Look at me  everybody I'm smiling big
On my road right now but I can't predict
Tell me to turn back around but I can't resist
You Know that growl better raise your fist
The search begins I'm back so enjoying the trip

(Growls)........