Nobody gets the **** I've been through but at times I felt it was best to die too, Your addiction didn't just **** you it killed me too, I wasn't the one popping those pills so why am i the left feeling lost and abused

We were best friends yo, you weren't just my little bro
I'm sorry i left, I know it was my fault but i was 19 and had to get away from our familys cult

But i know you had to find a way to deal with things too
you found a new best friend, but never knew what he would do to you

He was good to you yeah, numbed all your freaking pain
All i wanted was my best friend back while i was watching a stranger go down the drain

I know what it's like to be sick too, people don't understand
At one point I was starting to fall in love while the liquor was holding my hand

But just before it was too late i realized my new friend was toxic, it was time to stop making up excuses....
I mean ****, we were just having fun right?

See i wasn't an addict yet, but it hurt to let her go, i was sick too. I prayed to a God i didn't believe in because i didn't know what else to do

Now don't get me wrong, i wasn't head over heals yet
I prayed for God to take me but he still didn't answer that prayer yet