Breathe in.

Breathe out.

In and out.

In.

Out.



It´s okay

Calm down

Go to sleep

Curl up in bed.



Take your blanket

And wrap it around you.

Rest your tired head on the soft pillow

And just relax.



But I can´t.



I think of woolly sheep

Jumping over a fence

In a beautiful meadow

I count them in my head.



But the fence keeps growing higher

There are more and more sheep

The whole meadow keeps twisting

Why is my head doing this?



67, 58, 89, 200, 201, 102, 103, 104…

It´s just not working.



Breathe in.

Breathe out.

In and out.

In.

Out.



It´s okay

Calm down

Go to sleep

Curl up in bed.



Take your blanket

And wrap it around you

Rest your tired head on the soft pillow

And just relax.



But I can´t.



Because my head is spinning

I´m too scared to fall asleep.

I can´t risk relaxing my mind

Because then the nightmares will speak.



I get them every night

I don´t know when they´ll stop.

I don´t know why they keep coming

I don´t know what they want.



Breathe in.

Breathe out.

In and out.

In.

Out.



It´s okay

Calm down

Go to sleep

Curl up in bed.



Take your blanket

And wrap it around you

Rest your tired head on the soft pillow

And just relax.



But I can´t.



My mind finally starts wandering

To the land of far away.

And the dreams come inevitably

To steal the night away.



My house is exploding

There´s fire everywhere.

I run around trying to get out

As sparks burn off my hair.



I´m walking around the city

My family with me.

When fire shoots up from the ground

I run, but fire is all I can see.



I´m in a new neighbourhood

Looking for everyone.

But then I start hearing whispers

"Now my work is done".



It´s my 18th birthday

And my mum´s made me a cake.

But when I pull the lid off

The plate is filled with snakes.



I´m walking around the house

When I see my mum.

I try to tell her something,

but my tongue has gone numb.



We´re running away to a far-off land.

Everywhere there is snow

When suddenly a train comes.

And I have nowhere to go.



I can not drive

Yet I´m in a car.

It´s going forward

And I fall on my scar.



Soon the scream escapes me

As it does every night

I can not bear this any more

I´m too weak for this fight.



Breathe in.

Breathe out.

In and out.

In.

Out.



It´s okay

Calm down

Go to sleep

Curl up in bed.



Take your blanket

And wrap it around you.

Rest your tired head on the soft pillow

And just relax.



But I can´t.



I imagine myself on a meadow

The way my mother told me to.

With flowers growing all over it

Lilies and roses too.



Soon enough,

I fall asleep.

My eyes are closed,

My breathing deep.



But there they are again

Those films of dread

Lions are chasing me

And I am dead.



My cat has gone away

Never to come back.

I am lying on the floor bleeding

For I ran over a train track.



A meteor falls on my house

Exploding all the lighting.

The pages of The Book of Death are turning

My name in it in blood red writing.



There is a corpse right in front of me

I´m holding a knife in my hand.

I am sitting in a wheelchair

And I can not stand.



The world is dead, I´m the only one there.

All my family has gone elsewhere.

Lizards and toads are falling from the sky

I´m on stage and my throat has gone dry.



My best friend has turned into a doll

I´m being chased by a hideous troll.

I look in my mirror, then I drop dead.

I suddenly remember what an old man once said.



I thrash and scream

All through the night.

I kick and moan

I toss and fight.



I shout and turn

I cry and gape.

I want to get away

But I can´t escape.