i once saw things that weren't there, but so apparent to you. laid my belly on cool ground, while ignoring the view. a bruise was a bruise, didn't care how it formed, i laid listlessly in tact, while my floor was destroyed. i kept calm when i wasn't, saved my voice for closed walls, i walked miles through my thoughts, without walking at all. i wrote words with such meaning, with my meaningless drink. the higher the number, the deeper i sank. carved regrets in my arm, that i once couldn't say, turned my days to bad nights, just to keep things the same. i drove drunk late at night, just to feel like a ghost. never felt so alone, as i crawled my way home.