I feel Relieved, sick, somewhat dead.
I’ve taken my life, or I guess What’s left.
I’m blessed, Stressed, deprived, upset..
And out of breath.
I see my mother, and the lover I left
The blast of a cover. Maybe I’ll forget
But the number I get
For the feeling I suppress  
All the memories,
I’ve begun to forget
The constant feeling. The ache  in my chest
I don’t know what will happen, or what I’ll see next.
But I close my eyes and hope for the best
Im just...  
just so god ****** depressed
And the only thing I feel, a ******* red hot cigarette.
twist and burn on my wrist
The hurt!
And the poison killing my every breath
I’m ******* tired
I just want to rest
It’s dripping now and the tub is wet
I’ve said a prayer and hope for the best
But I don’t care. I just want to end.