Have you ever felt physically sick because of a person;
A person you would give up everything for if you had to?

Have you ever felt like a vessel that carries feelings you wish to get rid of?
Have you ever felt like crying but no tears are falling?

Have you ever tried to un-love someone, but can’t no matter how hard you try?
Have you ever tried to not show feelings to the person you’re most comfortable around?

Sadly, I have.

Sadly, I can’t get rid of my feelings for him…
Sadly, I can’t get myself to let go of him….

I’m comfortable around him, more than what I am with others,
But some days I feel like I’m a bother.

I long to be his, but I know it won’t happen soon…
Some nights I just wish my tears and feelings gone…

I haven’t opened this much to someone before,
And I don’t regret that I have… even though it hurts.

If I had the guts, I’d tell him face to face how I really feel,
But my fear holds me back.

I fear that the result might hurt me more,
I’m scared I’ll start crying in front of him and I can’t have that.

Being around him makes me feel at home,
Makes me feel calm and not unwanted.
I can be myself around him…

I can’t be like that in front of other people, let alone guys.

How do I deal with everything?
I haven’t fallen this hard before…