Sometimes you realize life might not be the best thing for you even when you have so many people there to help you and talk to you and care for you.
And it happens just when everything goes right, you slowly feel it .
You shrug it off “ maybe I’m tired” “maybe I need a mental break.”
Then you realize 3 weeks later when your sitting on the floor holding you favorite stuffed animal that its finally bad.
When you want to carve at your wrist,
when you want to cry and scream or sleep because feeling any sort of emotion is better than feeling lonely.
When you think of every sign that you saw or felt could have stopped you from feeling this
low
Unworthy.
Unworthy of life ,
Of happiness .