Chaos will be inside the head in the time of turbulence. You can't write your chaos because you don't want that chaos last forever. Someone means so much to you, even when that has nothing to do with him/her. When your biggest dream and blessing was him/her, and there is noway for hope. Feel the time when being silent you have to stop a world of million dream. You may stay silent because you don't want in anyway to make him/her feel hurt.  You don't want their precious time to be in vain. You don't want to disturb him/her. You don't want to see beloved sad. But you don't want to stay like this, either.
Then you may write when something stimulates the inner being, You are silent, not because you like it. You are silent, not because it
makes you calm. You are silent because you may feel weak. You are tired that's why you may be silent. You are silent, because you know who is inside your head. You are silent because, you do not complain. You are silent because you can't scream. You are silent because you have to. You are silent because that is a way better than being insane. You are silent, he/she knows, why?

Even after all you will find their vibe sound to the soul. You will stay silent because they matter.
Even in silence you find a god in them.
Feel the time.