the lowest depths of insanity: the very height of the losing streak
gambling is a dangerous game not because of the money, but the repetition of negativity that can actually hold the brain captive. it clanks a mug against the metaphorical prison bars of the psyche.
so stuck in the chase that you present the inability to hold out for even mere minutes because there's "hands to be dealt" and "stakes to be raised."
the recklessness you allow yourself to continue until you're at your wits end wondering why you haven't stopped yet, or perhaps, why you even started to begin with?
it's not a game of skill or wit, it's rigged to make the player feel superior