I feel myself sinking today.
These positive affirmations helped yesterday
And the day before
And the day before
Not today.
Today I'm overthinking
Today I'm having to employ CYA left & right.
Today I'm reminded of my shortcomings.
Just another day, it won't matter.
It won't matter.
I tell myself it won't matter.
But it does right now.
And I can't cry today.
I can't get mad today.
Am I sad? I don't know what I am.
I guess I'm numb today.
I don't think a drink will help.
I can't find the voice to speak about it.
I don't think a break from work will suffice.
I'm numb today.
So full of complaints
Yet depleted of conflict resolution.
Is this the pressure diamonds endure ?
Is this what will strengthen me?
Is that what this is ?
Should I be thankful for this?
Optimistic about it?
I don't know.
Today is just, not the day.