I question myself for malicious intent
Unknowingly waking the demon again
Fear I've ignored, and wants I've suppressed
I'm stuck in this world, not knowing what's left

It's hard to imagine I'm being unjust
Desires accommodate more than blind lust
I'm all that I am, not all that I was
I'm losing my mind, myself in mistrust


This is my art
I've failed to keep sharp
My tongue has been seized
Thoughts, gone dark
Holding the pen
I'm dying to know
When it starts to flow
What will it show
All I want to do is ******* sleep
Questioning my every move
Avoiding the truth
I'm trapped
Victims of insecurities
Neither awake or asleep
I can't just exist
Gotta persist
Outpace the demons
Avoiding the mist
Storms of hatred
Behind a calm breeze
I forgot how to swim
And I feel lost at sea
Alone in my battles
I carry the war
From behind the shadows
To my front door
Searching for rest
I find nothing more
Than self afflicted torture
And a yearning for more
The sand I lost count of
In trying to find
Some peace and a pillow
behind enemy lines
I thought I could conquer
And carry the reigns
To a land I once knew
Far beyond the plains
Guiding lights off
No stars to follow
I listen for whispers
From out of the hollow
They sound like my own
So callous and shallow
Guiding right up the steps
To my custom fit gallows


Is it me or is it them?

Tell me now, who is them?
An entire planet
Or a single man
But what about her
They are holding hands
If she likes you, he doesn’t
Well who the **** can
Change your disposition

Who are you?
Made up from friends
Made up from you
Made up from mom
Made up from crew
Made up of all the awesome people I speak to
And speak through in hopes I’ll hear those words reverberate through somebody’s speakers
Electrify your opposition
Only way to’s with glistening
Little voices cannot stop you
Boy you better be listening
Treat your head right
It’s not a bar fight
Dont push and shove
It’ll be alright
Don’t fret now
Man up
Use your type
Be it science
Be it words
Scream your way out
And let it hurt
Let it echo
Let it cry
It’s only for the night
The silence is what kills me
That cat had better purr
Too many times they’ve been quiet
I’ve expected that, is what’s worse
And not let it show what hurt me
Or even ask if it’s okay to feel this way
Better yet, not even acknowledge
That the struggle we feel is universal
******* this headspace
Open me up and take out the part
That forgot about you and all of your heart
I’ve grown so distant from everyone
Reserved in my madness