We had been at sea for what felt like decades In a tiny boat the size of a life raft we sat for weeks on end in silence just staring hoping to see land before insanity the incessant picking has always been a problem my thumbs, his downfalls and now, this boat almost unconsciously I began to pick at the lining until tiny little holes started to let water in I tried to avoid it sit on the holes fill them with fabric I took the shirt off my back to try to save the ship he looked at me as if to say, good luck with that instead, he said he had to get to work he stood up in the boat like getting off the train and walked straight into the water I've lost track of how long ago that was But I'm still here, clinging to what was once mine to what is drowning me slowly