Have you ever been so anxious your body is frozen yet running a million miles?

Have you ever been so anxious you can feel your heart pounding through your sternum?

Do you remember that feeling of anxiety the first and last time you involuntary participated?

Because the worst pain, is believing you remember the feeling the first time; the last is so much worse.

The renewal. The ritual. The regression.

The process in which one is broken; the ritual.

Becoming healed; the renewal.

Then torn apart worse than before; the regression.

Do you cope with unhealthy habits?

Do you taste your moonshine alone?

Do you become destructive and deadly towards yourself or others?

This part of you is ingrained.

This is you.

This was always you...

The renewal. The ritual. And the regression.