i sit within this darkened room
while contemplating death
examining my life ahead
each day’s become a test

i need to ascertain the core
and reason for my pain
because if i don’t find it soon
i won’t see morrow’s day

my bourbon’s neat and mind’s a mess
i’m barely holding on
it’s been some time since she left me
still mourning that she’s gone

i need to reconcile this loss
in turn becoming whole
for Jesus has prepared a room
for her eternal soul

my faith reminds that i will see
this mitigates my pain
is patience what i’m want to learn
‘fore i see her again

Lord please forgive my daily sins
these wages i have earned
i’ve gone through an internal war
i’ve lessons yet to learn