I've kept every letter
Every poem
Your special I want you to know
No matter what you go through
you are so strong
Strong and amazing
I made a mistake
pushing you away
You saved my life
In the most litteral of of terms
I've been blade to skin
was taking my final thoughts
I imagined me hurting you by leaving
And I stopped
And cried
About how sad I would be if you left
My moon and stars would fade
Because I loved every spec of your being
And I wanted to be yours
And I ****** it up
You did nothing wrong
my sick brain got so turned around
I pushed you away I
just want for you to be
Fulfilled by your own life
And not self injure
And not die
I want you here
Even if here is with someone else