you ever just get distracted by how nice you look shirtless? because this is a new thing to me admiring what a skilled surgeon was able to craft out of so much extra wasted useless skin
and i spent 9 years clawing at the inside and outside of my body trying to cut out what made me feel so trapped and wrong
i was not nice to my body this vessel that houses the very essence of who of what i am
i did not know how to love the peaks and valleys of flesh that i only wanted gone soft in what felt like all the wrong places
and i am still learning to love this body sculpted into a form i know how to live with to live in
pt.2 and i am apologizing to all the parts of me that bore the brunt of this journey to the man i was always meant to be
this is a love letter to my body to the scars where my ******* used to be that a dear friend and then my mother carefully bandaged for weeks when i couldn’t bear to look at them
this is for my soft tummy my thighs that jiggle when i walk for every part of me that i once hated
this is for being able to look at myself in the mirror and speak softly about the softest parts of me
this is a love letter to the little girl i never was to the little boy i yearned to be to the man i have become and the body that carried me
this body that sustained me and this body that refused to die