Why do I try to be perfect, when it's not possible? Why does my dad hate me, and is never proud of what I do? Why did my brother do what he did to me and ruined my life? Why was my mom always drunk and stupid? Why did I let her physically abuse me every day? Why would she think its ok to fill my baby bottle up with alcohol when I was a child? Why was my father never there for me? Why did he nearly **** me and my mom? What did I do to deserve such a ****** up childhood? It's just not fair!!! But you know it's ok now because I just keep looking forward and try not to look back at the past, I have an amazing life now, a perfect boyfriend who I love so much and a best friend named Jenny who has always been there for me, I love both of them very much and they mean the world to me they really do, my boyfriend Nick always makes sure I am ok and always keeps me smiling and laughing and lets me know that I always will have him and how special I am, I am so luck to have my man Nick in my life, I really am, everything I've gone through in life, I know I need him, because he is so perfect for me and he's always here for me when I need comfort, I love him SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!! AND ALWAYS WILL!!!!! <9999999999 XOXOXOXOXOXO :)