i'm sorry i couldn't protect you- i was trying to protect myself and a waste of time that was, i've done none i haven't changed or grown quite at all i've just gotten more and more out of control and that's the thing that hurts the most is that i could've prevented this how am i supposed to show you i'm sorry if you don't want to think of me i wouldn't mind a simple yes or no or a shout i wouldn't mind if I knew but i don't. please i'm sorry.