My Life was back to normal,
I had friends, laughs and happiness,
Yet there was always that little part of my brain-
that i ignored.
Because that little part of my brain-
**contained you**.
Our laughs,
Our fights,
Our text's late at night,
My hopeless dreaming,
and Your normal realism.
But I was fine with that,
You had gone,
And I had eventually realised-
nothing could happen.
No laughs,
No fights,
No texts late at night,
No dreaming of maybe's
No you and me.
So I walked around a bit,
Found myself again.
The giggly, hyper, slightly big-headed,
NerdyTeenager.
Not the depressed,
Overly mature,
(because I had to be like that)
Overly Sensible
Confined.
Just...me
And then it went terribly wrong.
Then i saw you.
Standing by the bus stop next to the kebab shop.
And all of a sudden, my heart beat rises,
My chest rises and falls-
I can't breathe.
It's like **you've ****** the life out of me**.
But you don't see me.
To busy on your phone.
So I go into the kebab shop,
I watch you from afar,
Still you don't see me.
Then the bus pulls up,
and instead of getting on-
someone gets off.
She gets off.
I don't know her name and I already hate her.
So you walk away with her- she looks so.....happy.
Unlike me.
So when people say am I over you,
I just say "yes"-
I lie
Still remembering goodbye.
Because when I'm away from you- I move on.
But the moment I see you-
My whole world crashes down infront of me.