facing a Gemini
not a literal one
my sport washing my life
a dose of nostalgia swallows me
overdoses of sadness, stress, and blindness
relaxation, a blue moon will show its face
my heart. attached to one is now lost
my independence climbing back
constantly getting knocked down
trying to climb the mountain of feels
defeating the monster of confusion
crossing bridge Gemini for a short cut
rarely making it
when I think I accomplish the journey and surprise always knocks me down
just like my swimming
my last lap was always putting me down
wasting all my energy on the first lap.

My head
a volcano that. wants to erupt
but the wine cork stops it
internal explosion occurs and the volcano breaks down

My thoughts
a bottle of shaken champagne
wanting to explode
and spill
with golden sparkling thoughts
but the owner changing its mind to a '61 Latour
a more expensive drink
the bubbles collecting up to the tip
wanting to speak
but the bubbles fade and goes back to the golden liquid
as my thoughts meltdown inside me

My heart.
literally no longer around
its been locked up
in a cell behind my bones
guilty of charge
putting feelings before the mind causing ******

My Ears

overdosed with music
songs that now control my mood
dreamy, sad, hype anything my ears crave
a marijuana to my mind
******* to my heart
and LSD to my ears
shrooms to my vision

summer of 2k19 pt.1