do i settle? fall into a groove of "just good enough" in her absence? do i let the pleasant smiles and half-conscious coversations with pretty faces and quaint personalities tempt me?
a quarter drops through the public telescope and i see my life for a moment, in ideals. not what it's become, an efficient machine that serves only to drift through days spouting polite hellos. no, i see the way i've always wanted to be in love, not planning my every move and measuring my words like a rookie chef. not laboring over a mask to conceal the parts i'm scared to show. i see hands intertwined in genuine appreciation acceptance the rarity of knowing another.
do i give up? no, i wait. i'll keep my promise. to you and to me