Prepoised and wide awake in my stance.
My heart sits as still as the rotating shining rock in my mind.
Pre jitter-jitters.

I won't rest until I know.
Perhaps a weaker man would know by now but a stronger man I have yet to be.

My chest pounds.
Be still. Rest.

My heartbeat still echoes through the mattress as I toss and turn.

Silence.

Stillness if just for a moment.
I will rest.

Our elders tell me not to get ahead of myself.
I've always been far too sensitive.
Heart on my sleeve.
What will you think? What will you feel? Why?

I want to run and hide from these thoughts.
Return to innocence.
Not feel like a clown inside.
Store these feelings.
You bring out the best and the worst in me making me smile on both counts.
I frequently dream of the day and the outpour of emotions.
Hand and hand you will help me learn as origami doves of peace and serenity take flight.

The world will see.
Notions continue to flow in my brain.
My friends all tell me that guys don't think like this but nothing makes me feel like a man more then seeing you look out from under that veil.

Here and now I need no stronger feeling.

We will rock this temple.
We will shake the earth.
If I only knew.

Be strong.

Love as long as time.
To have you by my side.
Will you take my hand?
Devoid of the worries of time? Time will only let me know.