as I sink into this quicksand of sadness
the silence seems to seep into the mind
it’s madness
before I know it I’m lost in the blackness
surrounded by the dead once again
it’s back to lifelessness and darkness
it’s then I get detached from reality
I feel like I’m submerged under the sea
holding my breath for an eternity
slowly sinking into a never ending abyss
wishing I did not ever exist
that’s when the Last Enemy strikes
whispering in my ear giving me wicked advice
like if I should’ve never been born
then why not end my life?
“it’ll only take a little while”
“it’ll only last forever”
“it’ll only hurt a little while”
“it’s now! it’s now! or never!”
there I am staring at the mirror
tears in my eyes wishing I could see clearer
about to take my own life away
will this be my last day?
more questions come and fear grips my heart
what if I wake up tomorrow in a hospital bed
with more pain than what was at the start?
what if I wake and see loved ones with tears in their eyes?
and instead of having peace I’d have broken all their hearts?
these thoughts were enough to make me go even more insane!
I cried even harder at these thoughts
I cried so hard the pain grew stronger
I cannot go on living like this any longer
so with all my might I prayed to God
and begged him please if you’re really there
then show me at least that you care
and give me hope please make me stronger
I cannot run from pain any longer
it was then I slept into a slumber
and dreamt of peace and forgot my blunders
and then the darkness was gone and the storm was over
and for this I thank the Lord Jehovah