Hey there, Anxiety How are you doing today? Deciding to claw me down again? Sure, I'm already your victim I'm just tired of pretending that I'm okay even when I'm not You've left me shattered The darkness I used to be once scared of is what I am filled up with today I just wake up everyday, go out there and smile and grin like nothing ever happened But behind that every grin and smile, there is a demon A demon making me crack my knuckles A demon making me bite the inside of my cheek A demon making me gnaw my bottom lip A demon making me shake my leg so fast that I don't ever realise it A demon making me climb to the rooftop everyday for a getaway A getaway from the people around me A getaway from the reality A getaway from my thoughts A getaway from my soul And just as soon as I think I'm fine, there it is again Pulling me down into a puddle I can't swim in An ocean full of sharks Eyeing me like they are gonna **** me right away I need somebody to hold me and tell me everything is alright The molecules inside me undergo a change every second A moment I'm so happy without knowing the reason why And the very next second, I'm crying like my whole life is a lie My biggest fear now is not you, Anxiety My biggest fear now is reality I'm too afraid to have a reality check Coz my reality is me against the whole world Just barely a second before I fall down on my knees And shatter my own bones And slit my own wrist to escape this I need a parallel world in which everything is not like this A world where I am accepted for who I am without my fun being made Where there is no you, dear anxiety Where I am free to fly like wind and flow like a river Where I can face myself in the mirror But then I snap back to reality And When I look in the mirror I don't see my reflection I see an introvert you've created, Anxiety My reflection is you And this might not make sense to everyone when I say this But deep in my heart I know That there is one person In one corner of this world Who understands what I mean when I say this, Sometimes you don't need an escape from the world, You need an escape from your own soul So eat me all you want Anxiety Turn me into the person you want me to be I know I'm halfway there I will not fight you I will not oppose you I will not counter you I am standing right here I was always standing right here