I remember feeling lost, empty, and alone all at once.
Wishing the day would come to an end.
Hoping you'd come back to me.
Where does it go from here?
How do I move on?
Knowing you were gone before the blink of an eye.
I've been afraid because lately I haven't been myself.
I'm not sure who I even am anymore.
Nothing has changed nor has gotten any better.
I just keep seeing you there, in my head.
Hoping that I had more time, but you already left.
Feeling guilty because I was distant before you passed.
No one around has helped me, feeling hopeless.
Feeling numb.
Looking for the sun, but I can no longer feel it anymore.
I can't see happiness anymore.
Unusual images and visions.
Careless.
No more laughter.
Darkness.
My mind has wondered with no intention of coming back.
Full of emotion AND emotionless.
Still lost, empty, and alone.. All at once.
And there is no coming back from here.