She surrounds herself around people
Hoping they don't notice this pain
She is forced to smile
So they don't ask questions
Her heart is pounding
Her anxiety is testing her
She takes deep breaths
Rubbing her hands together
As they shake
She excuses herself
To a different room
And cries
It never used to be this way
Something in her brain broke
It doesn't allow her to have peace
She fights to hold on
And thinks about something else
Her ears are on low radar
It's as if suddenly she has gone deaf
She is back with the people
With a broken smile this time
They are noticing the difference
And the questions are coming
The panic button is going off
Loud and clear
She has to separate herself
Once again
This battle is a chore
How will she ever win