It doesn’t matter
If a beautiful sun sets
I still have nightmares
It doesn’t matter if he tells me he loves me
My first love had an affair
I try to stay calm
After the pain hits
These thoughts are overbearing
How am I supposed to live happily
With a person that deserves me
If all I can do is be paranoid with my past
I will keep telling myself it’s all in my head
Maybe one day I will finally accept it.