You are so relieved and happy,
Yet my smile is a falsity.
I should be feeling glad
that nothing went bad
but instead all I feel is
nothing.
I feel emotionless and empty
as if a strike of lightening from that thunderstorm the other day
Came and zapped my emotions away.

So I am sorry my smiles are forced
and although I try to feel remorse
for this lack of feeling
Feeling nothing but indifference.

I tell myself I'm pleased,
But my brain will not acknowledge it.

Again, forgive me.