Many have struggled
to reach deep inside
to solve the great puzzle
of the secrets I hide
the lies and deceit
I suffered in my youth
the pain of defeat
and the years of abuse
the terrifying prays for help
that echo in my head
the overwhelming fear I felt
and the wanting to be dead
the many heads that turned away
and left me here to bleed
not listening to a word I say
in my greatest time of need
a life that’s filled with emptiness
has wasted all my time
and now I live each day depressed
in search of what was mine
the years of sleeping in a car
and being on my own
have plagued me with these mental scars
to deal with all alone
the years of being pushed around
have yet to finally end
the world still kicks me when I’m down
and I thought it was my friend
it’s easier to bottle up my pain
and pretend it isn’t there
but sooner or later I’ll go insane
and maybe then you’ll care
the trust and love is gone you see
and it’s not coming back
I’ll keep this wall inside of me
and that’s a simple fact
you’ll never know just who I am
or what I’m all about
cause I’m sticking to my master plan
to never let it out.