oh god,
if only i could hold you in my arms
tight enough to confuse your
romanticized emotions.

oh god,
if only you would keep me safe from harm
and not step down
until you've found
the source of my boundless devotion.

oh god,
if only i knew what you speak about
when you speak out
in tongue so sweet,
with deep red heat
which strokes your cheek
and drowns your guilt
along the deep
red ocean.

oh god,
if only i could show you
how you look
through a lover's eye,
and how the hook
of your nose
or your laugh
locked away
paints my world complete.

oh god,
if only i could tell you
how much you mean
without scaring you away
or losing your cold hands,
if you draw back
i don't know how
i'd live again
in crooked lands.

oh god,
i wish that you would think about me,
even for just a moment.
or more.

my greed demands that you
lay your mind around my body
enough to know
you really want me.

my soul demands you show no mercy
and tell me all the things which hurt me
and love me 'til the sun comes early.

my lust demands you stay while i meet
all the needs you never knew
and cradle you in the space
between the sky and heaven.

oh god,
i hope you find a man to love you
good and real, to never force you
down to kneel, to make your
summer dreams look real.

oh god,
i hope that i can move past this.