I torture myself
everyday with my mind...
with my thoughts.

Unsure what
to make of what I do
and,
why I feel like
I need to do this
to myself.

But -

I drive home from work,
and I think.....
I just know that -
as I breathe ....
some person,
some animal,
some wonder of God's creation is...
breathing their
last breath.

Somewhere,
someone....
some animal is
being tortured
for no good reason.

The fight for life
at the very moment
I think these thoughts in my mind is taking place.

A last stand -
a barbaric brutal
fight too breathe....

I can't apologize
to my mind
for these thoughts  because...

these thoughts are what make me....me .

Sometimes
I just...

I just wish -
my thoughts would
stop and -
let my mind...
be free.



written by me... ..