I just thought I should let you know
I'm ready
Ready to admit that I am a broken, confused human being whose mind
isn't exactly all there. . . .
And I'm ready to ask for help
To say that I'm not doing so well
Ready to take a leap of faith and tell the truth
About what's really going on inside my heart

All the anger and bitterness
mixed with the longing to replace it with grace and healing
The shards of my broken heart stuck into my soul
They're bleeding but I'm afraid if I pull them out I might bleed to death
And I should also tell you about how lonely I am at night
When the stars aren't even hinted at existing beyond the cold cloudy sky
And those nights I cry
And I wish there were someone to hold me but I am so afraid
I can't even call anybody because I don't want them, I don't want you, to see me

I still don't don't want you to see

But if I don't let you see the real side of me
I'm afraid I'll just fade away or the shards in my soul will draw too much blood
And I'll just
Slowly die in front of your eyes
And although I don't really believe it
I know that you do love me and I know that I love you and that were I in your shoes
I couldn't stand to see you die like that and so
I tell you
What's really going on
And pray that you don't judge
That you don't stop loving me because that
Is what I'm most afraid of
That is what I thought you should know