When I was a young(er) kid
I was asked to play a lead role
in the high school play
The only kid my age
and dreams of fame
and Hollywood
crept tantalizing into my skull
And when I got on that stage
all of the nerves melted away
and I know I'm supposed to be modest
but I ******* killed it
the school gave me a drama award
and took all of the award winners
to a book store
with a one free book coupon
and that was the first time I fell in love

I picked up a book by Darren Shan
it was for teenagers
but I devoured it
cover to cover
in one sitting
It was an addiction
and every time I got a new book
I also got the old warning
"Don't read it all at once this time Harry"
Not a ******* chance woman
I'm tweaking out over here
It all became very clear
It wasn't the acting I wanted
It was the audience
and with acting
I was always telling
somebody else's stories
but my words
were certainly mine and mine alone
Until I decide to give it to you
the audience
the only people I've ever wanted to impress
or help
or move
or even just make them crack a smile
**** the money
the women
the food
the real world
They would all come in the end
if they were meant to
So to everyone who has read
my throwaway little thoughts
Thank you
and I am so sorry