the watch my Mother gave me
as an after thought
while I was jumping back on the train
ticks far too loud

I have to stop it
I have to pull the *** out
to stop time in place


but when I need it
I promptly return it to my wrist
and set time back to the present
and let it tick
tock
and let my heartbeat align with the rhythm

you are just like the watch
too much
too loud
overpowering
except when I need you

so I will stop the time
and freeze you in place
and hope that soon I will need you
and my heart will beat again in your rhythm

but until then
I dance in the silence
I have created by banishing you