last night i dreamed
that we took that great
flying leap
at last.
i dreamed
you met my mother
and that you loved her...
even though i still can't.

i dreamed that you kissed me
on a couch that contained
every thought we'd refrained
from speaking
that at last they had a being
a shape.

i dreamed that you held a lock
of my thick red hair
curled it around your finger
enjoying how it glinted gold
in the lamp light.
i dreamed that we enjoyed
every piece of each other
like a cheesecake
to be savored
i dreamed that all you wanted to do
was kiss my nose
laugh
smile
tickle
tackle
breathe.

i dreamed last night
that we both wanted to be held
like so many times before
and we kidded and joked
that since there was no one else around
darling,
you'd have to do
but once done
you wouldn't let go
and i realized
that you never
wanted
to.