I wish you knew the damage you've done
But you are so ignorant
Bliss
I only wanted to give you
At my expense
Often
I cared for you more than myself
Always
I felt guilty

If only I could explode like you
Is it cathartic?
What purpose does it serve?
You only hurt yourself
And me
And the wall
And the chair
But instead I keep mine
I let it flow
Down my face but far from yours
Never explaining to you
The damage you were doing

You filled a piece of me that was missing for far too long
A piece that was none of your business to touch
But I grazed your fingers over it
And pressed your lips into it
Momentary peace
I traded
For my self respect
For my freedom
For my everything

I sank deeper
It wasn't your fault
How could you have known
You truly wanted the best
I think
For us
But we both knew
It wasn't each other