I can’t forgive myself For your mistakes I still reflect on them as mine I’m not fine My freshman year of highschool was a hell It’s a story I’d rather not tell But then again I owe it to you- for what I didn’t say I and what I didn’t do I always came back to the memories of you A homeschooled girl with Blonde hair Going with her ambitions without a care for anyone else As the silent clock struck quarter till 1 The devil addressed our reality with his ******* son And a sinister smirk That night came to lurk And left me in murk 10 lines of powder- I was fine Nothing wrong with my mind 6 for you and you were gone But you kept on going- on and on After the ninth hit I said “Stop” But you were insisting that you wouldn’t drop Line 10 you weren’t fine At 12:46 am on the 11th line you died Into my arms you fell And for the longest time I never would tell Anyone of what happened on that night
Six years later And I say That my Dad's death wasn’t in vain But it was yours that was harder That cold lifeless head Those vacant eyes blankly staring at me Though we didn’t know for certain at the time I had felt death and had seen it before I knew you were dead In the present future I stay awake Trying to stay sober As I reflect on my college experience And the drug intake This girl- Rosie she was you through and through (other than her hair color) I Thought that was a sign But she was taken And even if she wasn’t I would not make her mine But at the same time you were on my mind So I did drugs to ease the pain And severely messed up my brain
Lorelei Use your voice And sing for the angels And hopefully you were buried with your tennis racket I missed your funeral Our last memory is so surreal Your hazel eyes met my eyes one last time and we never truly said goodbye This book The strife it took to make all of these poems Doesn’t compare to the magnitude of your death paired with my fathers This book is dedicated to you And all mothers and daughters And for anyone who’s ever lost someone Life can end as fast as a bullet flies from a shotgun