She wishes she had the guts to tell him... The love she has for him is strong. He is being cheated on by her "friend" people know. She does not want to tell him and him think she just wants to cause drama. The thing that made her cry herself to sleep multiple nights, the reason she had panic attacks in the school bathroom, the reason she used to smile so brightly and it was not fake. He left her claiming he was not ready and ended up with someone she was very close with at a point in time. She wishes he could realize he broke her. He told her he would die without her and then he tried. He said it was a lie but she could see behind his white lie. It broke her very much when she found out her "friend" was cheating on him. She kept the teddy bear he gave her for memories. She cried into it when he left and it makes her cry to see it. And it breaks her when she realized he is not ever going to come back.


The teddy bear was burned, the lies stayed, the thoughts made her realize shes better off alone.