From age 5 and beyond
We continuously develop and discover a personal definition of desire
Personalities are transformed into permanent fixtures
Which means we never change
And it's part of our structure to lie
Most of all, to ourselves
Consciously or unconsciously
When do we find the guts to portray our ugly flaws?
Why would we want to admit them?
Urges of the "id" that are considered socially unacceptable are simply suppressed deep down
But we all contain these pleasure seeking energies no matter what
(Right or wrong)
Curiousness is how we learn
It's in our nature
As little kids, a collection of ideals are gathered from our parents and from society and is stored internally
We hide from ourselves more than we know, or care to admit
Why do we conceal our libido?
Because our "id" functions soully on pleasure
It's probably the most honest part of our brain
It knows what it wants
But we feel guilty about most things
Whether we know why or haven't a clue
And have the tendency to deceive ourselves
The push we feel is our libido
Or the driving force behind our behaviors
Why we do something or why we don't do something is decided by our conscious
(Right or wrong doesn't have a thing to do with it)
Most of the thoughts that we think don't even sift through our conscious
They pass through our subconscious and unconscious
We don't even realize that it's happening
But primarily, our actions of the super ego are held down
And we hate facing them
And if we're weak and our knees buckle under the pressure
We'll twist the truth around to put fault on another
As humans, we are programmed to make ourselves look good
Give ourselves a good reputation
Believe that we have morals
The scary thing is
We don't control our brains
It controls us