One day,
I earned the courage to pray
Without the urge
To feel ashamed
For the person I became
After my friend,
He chose to hang himself.
God knows I wish
He could have stayed,
But I could never
Judge him.
Lord knows sometime's
I feel the same.
Since then,
Nothing's been the same.
I've learned to love myself.
I can say I changed
For the better.
The road gets cold,
I know.
So, I wove a sweater
With this letter
For anyone just
Tryna get their life
Together.
For better or worse weather,
I'll keep my faith forever;
He showed me that
One day,
It really all does
Get better.
I remember
When I never thought
I would believe that.
And I mean
Never.
Even though I know
I got a lot of sins,
(I still love Xanax
And Klonopins)
I'm still tryna learn
To forgive myself.
I used to have a lot
Of self hatred,
But then I replaced it.
Still, I feel like a
Disgrace sometimes.
Still, I feel inside
That I'm a be fine.
I know God will
Heal me in time.
I just have to want
To try.
I used to get nervous
When I tried to
Share my pain.
I was afraid they'd
All just think
I was insane.
So, I refrained.
Then one day,
I realized
That I'm not the only one
Who feels this way.
I think I found a way
Out of the Darkness.
No, I don't believe in fate.
I think we create
Our own destiny.
Yeah, my empathy,
It gets the best of me.
I can feel her pain
Whenever she's sitting
Next to me.
You ain't gotta speak
A breath to me.
What's understood
Don't have to be
Explained.
Yeah, my empathy,
It gets the best of me.
It's the only thing
That keeps me from
Feeling empty, see.
I love my wife and
My brothers endlessly,
But that's about the
Only thing that's left of me.
And I'm just speaking honestly.
I don't feel no need
For apologies.
Just know that
Y'all give me the strength
I need to see another day.
Because of you,
Yeah, I can say I can
Make it through
Today.
Truly, I could
Never thank you
Enough.